My name is Tina. I don't always say out loud whats on my mind. Sometimes i don't figure out whats really bothering me until I write about it.

how often do i think something and say something else? when i nod my head in agreement shake my head in disgust, how much of my judgments do i actually let out?

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Man.. what is this terrible dread I feel today?

It’s horrible. I feel really anxious. I feel so suspicious. It’s just there. I don’t know why. I also feel really sick to my stomach though.. maybe I’m confusing the two feelings.

Sitting next to a window in Langson library when I’m suppose to be writing a 4 pg essay that’s due in 4 hours… Not a very good idea. This is why I can’t have my desk in front of a window anymore, I did for the first two years of college and my thoughts would always just go elsewhere all the time. There’s so much to look at and think about even if its the same scene over and over again. Like the view of Aldrich park.. the park is still, but every single person is constantly moving and changing the scenary. They look like Sims that have been given a set direction.

Sitting next to a window in Langson library when I’m suppose to be writing a 4 pg essay that’s due in 4 hours… Not a very good idea. This is why I can’t have my desk in front of a window anymore, I did for the first two years of college and my thoughts would always just go elsewhere all the time. There’s so much to look at and think about even if its the same scene over and over again. Like the view of Aldrich park.. the park is still, but every single person is constantly moving and changing the scenary. They look like Sims that have been given a set direction.

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Damnit

i spend one hour lounging around with him and i end up eating a huge dinner and getting food coma and lose all my drive to write my essay that’s due tomorrow T_T

must control my appetiteeee

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& i could call it self reflection and try and fix my flaws

& i could call it self reflection and try and fix my flaws

(Source: staypozitive)

I would hate to fall back into being the Butterfly

referring to the play M. Butterfly by David Henry Hwang..

I would hate it. Keeping myself vulnerable like that. Self control is what I need.

Things seem to be back to normal

i missed it, i really did. but that doesn’t mean there aren’t changes, whether noticeable or not. Still need to get myself back to the same state as before.

Im grateful for my boyfriend and bestfriend

that both are patiently waiting for me to turn 21… even though I am very very impatient to finally get there.

Like Marie said, it’s not my fault all my friends are old, it’s their fault they hang out with someone young like me :D or something like thatt..

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One of those things that make you feel hopeless

& you most likely can’t change. Sigh. I just need to get to sleep.

……i have no idea if this is true or nottt T_T my childhood has been a liee lol

……i have no idea if this is true or nottt T_T my childhood has been a liee lol

Phone Calls

called my mom, told her I missed her and let her go on and on about how I should sleep early and not stress myself out too much. Good advice mom <3